Thinking of You

  Oh wow, geez. I'm so sorry my beautiful peeps! It's been a while huh?  

  Um… there are a few things going on lately. I've been so busy with fixing up and painting our new place, driving back and forth running errands and taking my mother to her doctor appointments and getting things ready for college in September.  :bademoticon:

  Since we moved closer to my mother's family, we spend our free time in her aunt or cousin's house. I've never been to so many parties in my life in such a short time. I've attended about 6 parties, in which half of them involved either pools or water, 2 fancy dinners (they were actually demonstrations of these really expensive cooking pots), and the other I forget. 

  My emotions are all over the place lately because of certain events, driving me insane. I had an emotional breakdown, but I've managed to bounce back~ It feels good to be myself again. 

  There is also bad news. My great-grandmother has been diagnosed with intestinal cancer; she has two large tumors on both large and small intestine, probably metastasis. 

  The best option is surgery, and amputate the tumors and affected areas and unite the leftover organ. But there's a bigger problem. My great-grandmother is 85+ years old (actual age is unknown even to her daughter who takes care of her), and has many delicate illnesses (plus she's had strokes and heart failure) and is weak. She could never, ever be able to handle chemotherapy. But the cancer, left unattended, naturally will continue to develop and eventually kill her (the tumors will clog the intestines and the waste will not have any passage… imagine what will happen.)

  The surgery is massive and long. Its results will be to clear out the tumors and give her a little more time to live (if not eradicate the cancer). But that's if she makes it out of the surgery alive in the first place. There is a huge probability she will not bare the surgery and pass away in the operating room.

  Naturally, there was hesitation and everyone was unsure at first, but my mother spoke (as a survivor of cancer herself), and we all agreed that this was the best option. If God decided that it was her time, then we'd prefer she pass away silently and unaware, rather than lying in a bed agonizing until her death. We have faith in God and we hold to our Christian hope, but we are also willing to accept if God's will is to put her to rest.

  My mother was raised by the great-grandmother, so for her, she'll be losing her mother. Yet I watch her stand strong and give support to everyone. Like the Champion she is. I just hope I will be able to maintain myself as strong as she is. I will miss my great-grandmother (I've never known her well until now, but I've become fond of her).

  The surgery is this Wednesday. Please keep her in your prayers/thoughts.

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  I've really got to do something to update my gallery. Any ideas peeps?? I've realized suddenly that I've given up on my hobbies. That's not good.

BTW…. I think of all of you every day! MISS YOU ALL!!!